Category Archives: Thoughts

Nobody Help Me

Last night, around 12:15 am, I heard someone crying out in the alley behind my apartment. At first, I heard him say something about mercy. Then there as a loud bang and he started shouting, “Nobody help me!” This would be followed by a few explicatives. As he passed the […]

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What Green Lantern taught me about courage

Yesterday, I watched Green Lantern starring Ryan Reynolds as the DC Comics hero. It was a fun flick … but it also had a pretty profound underlying message.

The premise of the story is that there is an intergalactic police force who harnesses the green energy of will to keep the peace. Their biggest enemy is Parallax, who harnesses the yellow energy of fear. You see, fear is the natural enemy of will.

And, if you think about it … that’s very true.

Mark Strong as SinestroAt one point, Sinestro (one of the green lantern core, played by Mark Strong) is sparring with Hal Jordan (Earth’s green lantern, played by Ryan Reynolds) and he tells him, “Fear is the enemy of will. Will is what makes you take action; fear is what stops you, and makes you weak… makes your constructs feeble.”

When you put this into the language of universal laws or law of attraction, you can see the truth of Sinestro’s words. Whenever we give into our fears, give them power, all the positive thoughts and affirmations (our will to make our life better) will be for naught.

For me, the most thought provoking and powerful moment in the movie was when Hal was doubting himself and the woman he loved tells him what she had always seen in him.

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Evolutionary reluctance

Evolution, Creationism, and the Battle to Control America's ClassroomsIn the most recent issue of Penn State’s Research magazine, which I receive because I’m a member of the National Association of Science Writers, there was a little article that caught my eye. It was titled “High school biology teachers reluctant to endorse evolution in class.”

I find this concept somewhat shocking. According to the article, “the majority of public high school biology teachers are not strong classroom advocates of evolutionary biology … despite forty years of court cases that have ruled that teaching creationism or intelligent design violates the U.S. Constitution.” Worse yet, 13% of teachers “explicitly advocate creationism or intelligent design.”

Now, for a bit of background … I have a degree in Biology and am a trained science writer. So, yes, I believe in evolutionary biology. The evidence is stacked up in its favor. And, yes, I think that creationism and intelligent design are complete bunk and I would rather not have teachers share them as viable options.

If we are going to be competitive in the global economy, we need to have a scientifically literate populace. And that’s not going to happen if kids aren’t taught the scientific method and are led to believe that evolutionary biology doesn’t have its merits.

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viewmasterToday is my half-birthday.

How do I know? Well, today also happens to be my father’s birthday.

When I was little, I used to get ViewMaster slides for half-birthday presents on my dad’s birthday. My favorite ones involved Winnie-the-Pooh and the one I best remember is Winnie-the-Pooh and the Honey Tree.

Receiving these gifts made me feel special and connected. I was Daddy’s Little Girl and I thought the world of him. To this day, I feel a special connection to my father and have been missing him dearly this month.

You see, today marks the second anniversary of dad’s birth since his death. He died in late January of last year, missing his 80th birthday by just a few weeks.

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Interesting exchanges

flirtI’ve just had the most interesting day filled with wonderful and, at times odd, male attention. In fact, some of it was so odd I just have to blog about it!

The day started off with a nice IM chat with someone I’ve “met” at OKCupid, a dating website. It was filled with light-hearted fun and laughter. Very pleasant.

But that’s not what I want to blog about.

Ever have a snippet of time that you thought was going to go one way, only to have it go in an altogether different direction?

That’s what I want to blog about.

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Loyal to the garden

yellow and pink rosesI had an interesting dream last night. I dreamed I was working for a computer company that had a big office building with very few people working in it. Some of my friends from past jobs worked there. I was only there temporarily but, was doing my best work for them.

One day, I go to the break room and I happen upon this guy I like (currently). He’s someone who has stopped contacting me so, to respect his space, I don’t actively acknowledge him and go about my business getting a cup of water.

He sees me and and says, “Carma, I really have to hand it to you, you are certainly loyal to the garden.”

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And I thought I was was just a moth!

cosmopolitanLast night, I had my first Cosmopolitan. When I asked the waiter which of the drinks on the Happy Hour menu were sweet, he suggested that was the best one to start out with.

Boy, he wasn’t wrong. One taste and I wondered where that drink had been all my life.

This year (and I am aware it is only about six weeks old) is so amazing.

I’m experiencing life like it was all brand new. I’m experiencing dating like I never have before. I’m experiencing people like they are new and fresh and wonderful. I’m experiencing new foods, drinks, activities …

butterflyIt is like I’ve spent the past 10 years in a chrysalis and have just emerged a beautiful new butterfly.

And to think all this time I thought I was just a moth!

I am thoroughly enjoying the ups and downs, twists and turns of my new life. I am exuberantly enjoying learning who I am now … a new version of me … an improved version of me.

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What is love?

ChantallI just got my Catherine Ponder newsletter, Keys to Prosperity, in the mail today and it opened with this quote:

“God measures souls by their capacity for entertaining His best angel, love.”

Interesting, especially since this morning’s angel card for me was Chantall, whose meaning is “New romance is imminent – either with a newcomer, or through reignited passion in your existing relationship. Be open to giving and receiving love.”

Also interesting since now that I’m officially a free woman … my divorce was final on Jan. 3 … I’m starting to date again. I’ve already met a couple of great guys and there are other potentials floating around, too.

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What Is Creativity?

You can read this post or follow along as I read it.

Noun: The use of the imagination or original ideas, esp. in the production of an artistic work.

For some reason I felt called to write about creativity today. I guess because I’ve been feeling both very creative and creatively frustrated the last three weeks. It is as if the object of my creation lies just beyond a veil … I can sense its presence and yet, I cannot seem to lift that veil and reveal its beauty to the world.

Donatella Versace once said that “creativity comes from a conflict of ideas.” The thing for me is that not everyone sees the same conflict, so your particular resolution — the birth of your own creative expression — will never be exactly like someone else’s.

For me, as a fiction writer, creativity is often the ability to see juxtapositions where others do not. Creativity is not necessarily creating something new per se, but seeing what is already there with a new perspective, from a new angle … or sometimes simply an ever-so-slightly different perspective or angle.

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The Power in Vulnerability

Last month, SyFy aired a two-part miniseries called Neverland. In one scene the Indians and pirates are fighting. Many Indians are dying for they only have spears and arrows, while the pirates have guns. Then, the tribe’s holy man, played by Raoul Trujillo, opens his arms and stands in front of his people. In that moment, he was superbly vulnerable — an easy target for Rhys Ifans’ James Hook — and yet he was also at his most powerful. Hook stood down and the pirates got away.

This year, I’m conducting an experiment in gratitude and working through a book I recently read called Living in Gratitude. In one of the exercises for this month, I’m exploring my lessons from the four themes of soulmaking … one of them being “power.”

On New Year’s Day I made a discovery about my relationship to power. I discovered that surrendering to vulnerability can lead to an amazing rush of personal power. And, as the week has progressed I’m learning that being vulnerable is like being in a forging fire or running a gauntlet of flame. It can be painful … which is why so many of us avoid it like the dentist … but it is necessary for all the good things we want out of life.

Being vulnerable means opening ourselves to the possibility of pain. It requires courage both in bravery and in its original meaning of telling the story of who you are with your whole heart. Being vulnerable requires that you believe in your own worthiness and that you accept that not everyone is going to agree with you on that matter.

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